Thursday, February 03, 2005

Thoughts on Skin

I think that when I first thought about losing weight I had this illusion that I would lose 140 pounds and have a perfect body. I've changed that thought lately. I have been taking a very close look at what I have done to myself. The stretchmarks across my stomach and the back of my arms... I've realized that I won't have perfectly tight skin when I've reached my goal. I realize, although I can't say what I will look like, that I won't have a perfect body. And I realize that I am really ok with that. I also know that if there is loose skin when I am done I probably won't have surgery to remove it. Not only is it very expensive I have a terrible fear of surgery in general. But back to the point... I'm going to be ok with the loose skin and the stretch marks. In all reality I've earned them and I intend to wear them as a badge of honor one that states that yes, I was 140lbs over weight. Yes, I was out of shape and didn't take care of myself the way I should have. But, I overcame all of that to be healthy and take better care of me. I think that the skin and stretch marks will be a reminder of what I never want to be again. I'm not saying that I will look like an elephant I don't believe that but I think I've come to grips with the worst and hope for the best. We will see how it comes out in the end.


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